The question is of course, why this girl? I mean. I'm old. I'm an old married woman and mom to FIVE children. Why in the world would I want to blog about love, and marriage and intimacy and Church teachings, and why oh why would I want to write about these things for and to young Catholic women?
Because I got my heart broken in a bad way.
Because even though that relationship was volatile and damaging and just plain wrong, I wanted to marry the guy anyway because I thought that it was love.
Because I spent so much time trying to fill a hole in my heart that plagued me day and night in ways that just led to a wider and deeper hole.
Because my soul was so very fragile.
Because I wanted to give myself in love, but really had no idea how.
Because, by the grace of God I found a man who helped me heal and learn and grow.
Because that man wanted to learn and grow in God's ways with me.
Because I never knew how profound and amazing it could be to kneel after communion with the man I was dating, hold hands, bow our heads and pray together.
Because even though we would stumble, we knew that there was something that was just right about doing things God's way.
Because God's ways have made our marriage healthier, stronger and happier.
Because I worked in youth ministry for 12 years and met so many girls who were AMAZING and just didn't know it.
Because I would listen as these girls would tell me heartbreaking stories that sounded a lot like my own story and I wanted to share with the truth of their beauty and goodness.
Because these girls sobbed tears of regret with me after they gave pieces of themselves away. Pieces they could never reclaim and I wanted to point them to healing and mercy.
Because maybe God is using where I've been and what I continue to learn to plant seeds in the hearts of his precious daughters. Maybe just maybe, God is using me to share the story of the best, purest most beautiful love their is.
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